evilLilac

she looked at the clouded sky, her thoughts far away.she sailed back in time, watching herselfplaying as this little innocent child.there had always been a dark shade hanging over her life, turning the good things to pain and the pain to anger.they all said she had been an evil child, because she won most of the fights she had to fight.the scars are still on her body, a bit faded, but still there, reminding her of all the pain, all the suffering.when she was small she couldn`t understand why she fought, she just did it because her instincts told her to.now she had lost her way, she was alone trying to find out why she should fight.her mind ha

everything feels cold as ice, maybe colder, noone can see the ice, just me.maybe it is the price i have to pay for being lonely.seeing what others do not see.they see the wonderland, i see the world how it is, and the pain tears me apart.i would give my soul for not being so lonely, and these cuts on my arm i do not want them to be there.i want to be happy again, but i am afraid i will rather give up, than forgetting about how the world is.it is just a small step on the tracks, if the train catches me, then it is over, forever, and i can go to hell, or something worse.

I am running away from everything, i never wanted this to happen, i wanted to be strong, and to never lie again.but my life has become a lie, i have become a liar, and i am sick of this, of selling my soul to lies, and get betrayal and hate back, of myself.now tell me…why should i live on?